Why

Why did I realize my mistake,
When it was too late,
Why could I not express,
Why was I such a depress,
Why could I not say a sorry,
Properly,
Why did I give her a reason,
To go away from me,
Why did I act foolish,
My every action,every word,
Extremely churlish,
Why did I with my own hands,
Let our beautiful world perish,
Why did I not think,
The consequences,
Why could I not be humble and blink,
But took her,to the very edges,
Why was I so dreadful,
Could I have not seen,
That I was being so hurtful,
Why did I lack the courage,
To stand by her,
As her strength,
& Why was I such a verbiage,
At the times,when silence was,
The only passage,
[At me,I feel now,so much outrage]
Why could I not trust,
Her Love for me,
Why could I not simply,
Love her unconditionally,
Why did I define,
Ridiculous, Unnecessary specification,
Why did I behave,
In a way,
That made her weaken,
Why could I simply not enjoy,
Her wonderful company,
Her beautiful voice,
Why do I crave so much now,
To hear her voice,
To see her again,
Why[How] did[could] I make,
That beautiful soul cry,
When at all the times, I was at fault,
Why[How] did[could] I question her innocence,
And let myself berate in her eyes,
Rather than exalt,
WhY(it's an intentional Caps) was I letting things,
Spiral out of control,
Why was I acting silent,
And hiding with fear,in a hole,
I myself dug up,
So deep,
That I could not see,
What had become of me,
Why could not something or someone,
Knock some bloody sense,
Into my head,
Why was my personality,such a pretence,
So many things, left unsaid,

All because of me.......